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Bleah.

Time to go back to the doctor. I feel so drained. I'm tired  and have almost no interest in my hobbies. I've barely picked up my stitching this week. T.V. bores me (I dozed off during House last night). I don't want to go to choir. I really don't want to go to church these days. Here comes the rant I promised earlier...

The associate pastor is awful. I can's stand her sermons. The new children's pastor is even worse. He talks down to the kids, which is just appalling. The choir is totally neglected in favor of the lousy contemporary service. And church is just plain BORING. It shouldn't be that way. It's time to find a new church when that happens. But I'm getting to the point where I don't want to bother. Church hasn't felt like, you know, church to me for a few years now. I'm a believer, but I'm getting bored! And it's not just me. My mom, the daughter of a preacher, agrees with me! We might go "church shopping" this summer and see if there is anything better.

Back to the drained part. I haven't had a lot of enthusiasm for anything lately. I've barely visited TrekBBS (except for my forum and the Lost/24 commentaries). Even my usual fangirl ways don't appeal to me right now- if someone at obascposted some really great pictures of Bryan Dick (or another British cutie) I would barely notice! (Well, if he was naked I would notice, but that's for another thread!) The thing that bothers me the most is my lack of interest in cross stitching. I can barely stand to look at my projects. How do I snap out of that?

My doctor will probably just up my meds or prescribe something new. I really don't like the idea of being medicated forever.

Hopefully, this won't last. I could snap out of it tomorrow, or next month.

Comments

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tselmende
May. 16th, 2007 05:01 pm (UTC)
Poor dear!

I get in moods like this, and I just put everything aside. I'd try and read or relax somehow...if you can think of soemthing special, like a movie out or soemthing, try to go to it. And sleep. I tend to try and sleep through bits of it. :(
mollybarton
May. 16th, 2007 05:29 pm (UTC)
I"m sleeping too much already. :( That's part of it. But thanks. ;) Maybe I'll go to a movie this weekend...
crusherdisciple
May. 16th, 2007 06:15 pm (UTC)
What about the sleep, exercise, diet and social aspects? How are those going?
mollybarton
May. 17th, 2007 03:05 am (UTC)
Diet, good. Exercise, doing more and more (helping my mom in her garden is a workout in itself). Social. Heh. Limited but it's not terrible. But I'm sleeping too much. I'm starting to think this is more physical than anything.
rjdiogenes
May. 16th, 2007 11:56 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling so depressed, kiramowett. :(

You shouldn't be so set against continuing medication; depression can have physical roots that are beyond your control. Just like I have to continue with blood pressure meds, you may have to continue with yours. The important thing is to find something that works.

Also, maybe you should ask your doctor to refer you to a therapist. Somebody who knows what they're talking about (unlike me :D) may be of some help to you.
crusherdisciple
May. 17th, 2007 12:20 am (UTC)
^ Yeah, have they suggested CBT?
mollybarton
May. 17th, 2007 03:07 am (UTC)
I'll have a good long talk with my doctor next week and see what she thinks.

I've done therapy. Never helped much except for venting. And I can do that here...
crusherdisciple
May. 17th, 2007 03:40 am (UTC)
Would it help if I let you tickle Owen? ;D
mollybarton
May. 17th, 2007 04:15 am (UTC)
I have Eddie to tickle. :p Eddie loves the attention!
pookha_hare
May. 17th, 2007 04:38 am (UTC)
on tne medication it is possible something has either stopped working or not working as it is supposed to.
this is a suggestion.. it may or may not help
keep a detailed log till you go to the doc of..
a time period'
how you felt, your reactions, plus how you felt on a physical level
at that time. also note medication you took , what time and what with.

as for church , a new one might help since you are not fond of the current sermons and blah on the child minister.

kronob
May. 17th, 2007 04:07 pm (UTC)
Hope you feel better :( and good luck on Church shopping, it's never supposed to be that boring
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