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I'm still with her.

It took me all night to come up with the right words. I can't believe Clinton lost to Trump. I am ashamed to be an American right now.

I threw up three times last night, until I had nothing left but dry heaves. My mom had to talk me out of jumping out the window. I never slept last night. I have friends who are literally going to DIE because of this. I’d leave, but I have no resources. I am afraid for my LGTBQA friends. I’m afraid for my disabled, mentally ill, Muslim, Latino, black, Native friends, i.e., anyone who isn’t white, rich, straight, Christian, and perfect. I am mildly disabled (hearing impaired) and have severe depression and anxiety. I’m afraid for myself.

I’m glad my brother-in-law didn’t live to see this. He died one month ago tomorrow. This would have killed him. I’m scared for my cousin, who has worse mental health problems than I do. I’m scared for my three sweet bi-racial cousins, especially the two boys. I’m scared for my diabetic friend who can barely afford her insulin now.

I’m scared.

I likely won’t be around for 2020 if Trump gets his way with Obamacare. If I can’t afford the meds that keep me from killing myself, it’s bye-bye molly barton.


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Nov. 9th, 2016 10:42 pm (UTC)
I, too, am frightened by D'ump. His ADHD-like personality and total self-absorption are a recipe for disaster.

The only thing that I can think of to calm myself is believing that he will surround himself with people who are more knowledgeable than he is and will take their advice. (After all, he cannot err and let the entire world find out just how ignorant he is!)

As for health care, he'd better have something in mind to "replace" after he repeals the ACA or there will be a lot of angry people when they lose their insurance.

Please try to think positively. **hugs** There are a lot of people who care about you and don't want anything happening to you.

I'm one of them. :)
Nov. 9th, 2016 11:00 pm (UTC)
There are a lot of people who care about you and don't want anything happening to you.

I'm one of them. :)

I'm another.

I care about both of you and as abysmal a result as this is, you have to try to keep going. Grieve - because I honestly think that's an appropriate thing to do - and then try to be as positive as you can.

*** hugs *** and prayers for you both.
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